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Monday, 31/10/2005 - Winning and losing is just part and parcel of life! Whether you win or lose in anything, the most impt thing is to be a humble winner & not a sore loser..It's all abt sportsmanship. Win or lose is not exactly impt. You gain experience each time you participate. 经一事长一智!

Sunday, 30/10/2005 - Don't be blind to your faults! I read a meaningful book recently. As I stared at my wonderful samsung flat screen monitor for ages thinking of 2nite 语录, I cldn't think of my own. Den afew things tt happened recently made me thought of a story I read in the book. It was said that when humans are born into this world, they brought along 2 bags wif them. A big & a small. The small was hang infront of us while the big one hanged behind. In the small bag, contains mistakes make by others while the bag behind is used to contain our own mistakes. And because it's behind us, we dun normally get to see it. This explains y some ppl nv ever in their life wld admit to any mistakes they made. A simple example I heard frm my tutor yrs ago. She told me, "How ironic it is to critise the drama actor ill-treating his dad in the show when the audience is one who left his dad in an old folks home?" Would ur wrongs be lesser whether u ill-treat ur parents or l

Saturday, 29/10/2005 - It doesn't matter which path you take if you have no idea where you want to go! Every path leads u somewhere. Bt if u haf nv tot of the final destination u wana arrived at, den it doesn't matter which way u go. Coz whichever place u end up at wld nv be a place u've plan to to go. It's alwiz impt to haf a goal, a destination u wana reached. At least u wld nt be travelling like a ship on the sea wif no compass. 就连候鸟也知道自己冬天要往哪里飞去...

Gal, Mb I express my views wrongly..I didn't mean that I nv expect u to hold ur promises to me. I trust ur every words, bt I'm simply prepared tt 1 day, u MIGHT(nt for certain) no longer hold the promises u made. I believe in hoping for the best yet preparing for the worst. At least if tt time really comes, I wun be as sad as nt well prepared. The promises I made, I hold them true. Your promises to me, they're kept in my heart. B4 yest, u really didn't hurt me. Bt things wld nt change a wee bit even of wat happened yest. I totally understand hw u feel, y u tink the way u wld. U're still the same gal in my heart as u had alwiz been. I still believe u as much, still like u as much & still will enjoy my every moments wif u nt juz as much, but getting more every time we go out. Don't say sorry to me ever again. Don't talk about fairness to me anymore. Nth is fair in tis world. Who are we to make everything fair? And what exactly is fairness? Simply let me li

Extracted from her blog - > Hurting you is not what I want and I didn't expect things to become like that. After receiving ur sms, I can sense that something is not right. I msg u and called u twice but u chose to reject my call. Do you know how worry I am? I kept staring at my phone waiting for u to msg back or called back. I don't felt like going to sleep anymore even though I am tired. I just wanted to contact u on the phone and heard ur voice just to make sure u are alright and reached home safely. I know I have promised u to forget about what is fair or not fair. But I just cant control my thought from not thinking of fairness.U may think that I worried too much but this is what my character is. I know that there is nothing much I can do when things already happened. Even though I promise you now again not to think about fairness, you will not believe me anymore. I know I have lost the trust that u have with me and u might even feel disappointed with me. But no matter w

送她回家以后 一个人开着车子在快速公路上奔驰 收到她的一则简讯 思索起伏不定 忽然之间 眼眶湿了 失去已久的眼泪仿佛找到了回家的路 当第一滴眼泪落下 我知道对她我已无可自拔 越想控制却越无能为力 泪如雨下 停在路旁 眼前一片朦胧 耳朵顿时什么声音都听不到 想要呐喊也开不了口 握在驾驶盘上的手失去了感觉 心跳仿佛停止 好像下一秒我就会灰飞烟灭 手机不停地响 我惟有取消来电 不能让她听见我哭泣的声音 不想让她觉得伤害了我 她说觉得对我不公平 但试问世上什么事何谓公平 为何她始终不了解 对她好是我的使命 在一起享受的每一分每一秒都是快乐的 她的微笑是我最大的回报 我们俩都很矛盾 到现在也搞不清自己要得是什么 她有她的原则 我有我的坚持 她坚硬的原则何时才能彻底的放下 我的坚持要撑我到多久 为什么要为不肯定的未来而烦恼 享受当下难道不是最重要的吗

Friday, 28/10/2005 - Don't be bothered about something that may never happens! In life, we tend to worry abt alot of things. Whenever we wana do or say sth, we hestitate. What if this happens, what if that goes wrong, what if he/she thinks, what if they can't accept, & the list goes on & on..? These what ifs are just stopping us doing things we alwiz want to. As long as the thing u do is not gona harm, cause physical or emotional hurt to any1, go ahead & do it. You never try, you never know. And because it's what if, means there's a possiblility that the factor u're worried about would happen, similarly it wld aso means there's still a possibility tt it wld nt happen at all. And more often than not, it's juz the human's brains tt tink too much & get themselves so worried abt sth that may never ever happens. What's the whole pt? The future is not ours to see, just enjoy the present state!

Thursday, 27/10/2005 - Alot of things take time to show its effects! Like going on a diet, u need to be persistant & consistent on ur workout to truly see the effects on u & haf a healthy body. Studies, u need to spend time revising for ur exams to get the best scores u can too. So nv give up when some things do not seem to work at 1st..coz over time, the effect might be greater than wat u expect!

Wednesday, 26/10/2005 - Physical touch warms a heart! This is easily illustrated. If u haf a dog, the moment u stepped hm, the dog wld stroke its head against ur leg. It's showing u tt it misses u & is happy 2c u. Hw nice it is to be welcome. A pat on the back to praise u for good work done or console u for trying ur best. It's adds joy and relief sorrows. A peck on the cheek frm parents to let their kids feel safe & slp tight thru the nite. Don't lose the gift that all humans are born with. Can you imagine a world even the ability to feel? I can't..

Tuesday, 25/10/2005 - Mistakes made are first known to the person who did them! When ppl make mistakes, they would noe. It's juz a matter of whether they wana admit it. Of coz there wld be some ppl like my frenz(panda chen)'s bf. He would nv admit tt it's his fault. Even when he did sth which no1 wld tinks he's rite beside himself. Next time when some1 makes a mistake, point out to them once, it's enough. If they're sensible, they would noe it's their fault and will feel bad abt it. Don't make them feel worse. Bt if they're like PC's bf, wat's the pt of telling them they're wrong in the 1st place when they simply dun bother and in their dictionary, they can nv be the 1 at fault? Forget abt these ppl, they're hopeless! *For my dear mum, every1 noe the mistake was nt make by u, at least OHANA believe u. Heck care that unreasonable & arrogant mad lady. It's her loss. Rem wat gma said, "When some1 scolded u for sth u nv do, t

I wrote a poem for her.. We met by fate Past were the countless dates From strangers who never met To colleagues who rarely chat Became friends we simply clicked Now you are someone who makes my heart skipped Taking it slow is what we seek I am here to take care of all your needs Love is lurking into your life Sincerity is stacking on my side We sought to see the future When we ought to cherish the present Maybe it is time we take the risks To truly enjoy the bliss I can sense your heart beating Just like my fast breathing You are feeling confused This is why you simply refused Let take your hands To our own wonderland I can’t promise you forever But bringing you hurt is never I am not asking you for a Yes Until I have passed all your tests There is nothing I can do But only to let time prove

Monday, 24/10/2005 - You deserved the best; fight for it! Every1 in this world deserved the best. But it would nt come to u by waiting & letting chances passed. Fight for it! Show the world how badly you want it! Let whatever you want feel your sincerity & even if u still can't get it in the end, at least u tried ur best!

Sunday, 23/10/2005 - Greatest thing on Earth - Mother's Love! I tink nt much ppl wld disagree wif me on this. And I dun really need to elaborate more to emphasize hw great our mums are to us. The most significant thing that only a mum can do for u is who else can carry u for 9 mths plus b4 delivering u safely on earth? If she had decide to give up 1/2 way, u wldn't be here nw. Mums wld nv say u're ugly, coz they think we're the most perfect 'products' they made on earth. Go give ur mums a kiss after u read this. Mums kissed us when we were young, even when we had chocolate all over our face or we wet our pants & sat dere to mess wif our urine. So even if ur mums had all her teeth gone & is dripping saliva, u still haf no excuse nt to kiss her!

Saturday, 22/10/2005 - Deepness of hurt caused tells it all! 1st of all, to clarify tis is nt based on personal experience. In fact, my r/s in all areas is getting on fine! haha (".) Den some bear wants me to acknowledge tt he provides abit of help in 2nite 语录 coz he seeks my advice on his frenz's love r/s. Ok, thx my dear xiong di di! Love will definitely hurts, bt when love hurts sometimes, it shows hw deep ur love is coz u care. Bt when love hurts all the time, it may nt be love after all. Coz I believe love shld let u feel positive. 幸福因为被爱，受到关怀，心头涌上一种甜甜的感觉. Isnt't tt wat love is abt?

Friday, 21/10/2005 - The longer you wait, the harder it gets! This is the advertising line for the "40 yr old virgin" which I went to watch tonite actually. It was refering to some other stuff. But I tink tis 语录 can served our daily lives reminder. Sometimes, we keep hesitating abt doing sth bcoz we're so so so worried it doesn't turn out well. But the longer we wait, the more afraid we get & the higher chances of nt doing it. Sometimes, u juz hafta see, tink, analyse, make a decision & do it all in a spilt second. Once the timing is missed, u may miss it 4ever! Anyway, sth nice happened to me 2nite..Nt gona tell u folks..hehe >.< gota respect indivual parties. Until involved parties dun mind letting ppl noe. Yet y did I said it here rite? Coz wana 吊你们胃口. haha (^^.)

Thursday, 20/10/2005 - Surprises are nice, be generous with them! Nice surprises are alwiz welcome by every1 I guez. Juz dun gif stunning surprises that shocked the life out of the other party. We shld try to give surprises to ppl ard us once in a while. No1 ever said surprises hafta be an expensive candlelight dinner for ur wife, a small card of thx to her for maintaining the household so well will do the trick. A disneyland tour is great for a kid who do well, bt a day of pure family fun w/o calls related to wk on ur hp is a great reward for ur kids too! Surprises come in all sizes & it's nt a 1 size fits all kind of stuff. Be creative, think! What matters most is use ur heart!

Wednesday, 19/10/2005 - You may be the one making things difficult for yourself! I gt my 语录 frm a joke I heard on FM93.3 tis morning. 1 day, a wife called her husband during off work hours. "Hubby! I'm watching the news nw & there's this idiot driving against the flow of traffic on the expressway!" "Honey, my side here is even more dangerous, every1 else is driving against the flow of traffic!" Sometimes in life, we failed to see that we're actually the 1 who's trying to go against every1 else & things become difficult for ourselves. It may be our sturbborness - refusing to change or accept other ppl's advice. So when u feel as if the whole world is nt on ur side, mb u shld stop to tink of ur own doings. I dun encourage ppl to follow the crowd & go wif the flow, bt if u're going the wrong way, pls make a U-turn. You would nv get to see the sun rise if u insist on going to the west coz the sun shall alwiz rise frm the east. (btw, u

Tuesday, 18/10/2005 - Balance your see saws in life! I guez almost every1 of us play see saws at least once in our childhood times. We noe hw hard it is to balance the see saw. In life, we actually haf alot of see saws too. When u're young, u hafta balance ur sch wk & fun. Then u start to haf a partner u call ur steady, u hafta balance b/w them wif ur family & frenz. And when u go to wk, again u hafta balance ur wk wif ur steady possibly turned spouse & family. Though all the see saws in our lives are v.hard to be balanced, they can be done. As long as u're willing to put in alittle bit more effort in trying. The after effects u get will be v.satisfying. Trust me..try it & u'll noe!

Monday, 17/10/2005 - You never know what you own until you lost them! I guez we humans nv learn our lessons..We alwiz take ppl ard us or our things for granted. Until we lost them, we realized their existence & hw important they were to us. However, it's nt everytime we get a chance to retrieve them. Some things once lost is gone forever..Cherish whoever u're wif nw & watever u haf wif u nw b4 it's too late!

Watched 'Deuce Bigalow : European Gigolo' yest. In the show, the leading actor mentioned abt wat gals really need that guys tend to miss. I shall nt tell u wat he said, so u wld watch tt nice show urself! haha (".) But after watching it, I had some 感触.. I think.. A gal wants 2b asked hw was her day frm her bf who's equally tired after a day work. A gal wants a hug tt can warm her heart on a cold day. A gal wants a shoulder to lean on when she feels like crying. A gal wants to noe she's being loved, given care & concern, needs attention. A gal wants a guy who wld treat her well, love her for who she is, some1 to stand up for her, be dere for her when she needs some1. If only it ends dere & then, mb things wld be easier & life wld be better for me.. However, wat most gals still want & need on top of that all is to get married, bear their own kids & haf a family to call her own. Sometimes, I juz feel that life is being so unfair 2 me..bt well, I

Sunday, 16/10/2005 - Enjoy the process, ignore the outcome! I was cracking my head for 2day's 语录 when my sis came in & said she heard tis frm her frenz & strive 2b able to achieve tis state. Well, if only every1 can truly understand & live wif tis, mb things wld have been easier, life wld be better. But no 2 persons are the same. And every1 lives wif different principles. I'm one who stick to my principles and I definitely wld nt force others to bend theirs. However, do we really nid to tink back on our principles if it's time to do some changes to them? I'm nt even sure of tt myself..All I noe is as long as I'm happy wif the way things are being done, life is moving on, I dun really hafta care tt much, do I?

Gal, this is for u as promised.. From the beginning till nw, I'd nv tot of asking u as my gf, u noe y..All I want is to be ur care taker to take care of u till ur rite guy comes along..帮他保管你，然后让你毫无伤害，当他出现时，双手把你交给他. That's wat I ask for. To others, they may think no1 can be tt nobel. Bt bcoz as I told u, no matter which gal I am wif, there can't be a happy ending for us. I believe in 曾经拥有，and nt 天长地久. No1 noes if they can fulfill the promise of forever. And wat is forever? We both enjoyed each other's presence. You like the way I care for u, it's nt being selfish. Which gal doesn't want attention, care & concern? And I'm caring for u on my own will, u didn't ask me to do it. And y do I do tt? It's juz bcoz I like u, simple as tt. To ask me to stop liking u immediately, it's completely impossible & I dun c the need to do so..Feelings are developed on their own, by forcing them to go any other ways wld only makes things difficult for oneself

Saturday, 15/10/2005 - 曾经拥有才是肯定，天长地久是个未知数！ I alwiz tell the gal I am wif..I wun promise u forever, coz ppl changes & even if I dun change, there may comes a day when I hafta leave u due to some circumstances.. All I can say is as long as I live & as long as my heart's wif u, I wana make u happy everyday, gif u watever I can wif watever I have..Coz the moments we shared shall served as memories even after we part..

Friday, 14/10/2005 - Never leave your sentence incomplete! The worst ting u can ever do to any1 is to say things 1/2-way & leave them to complete ur sentence or fill in the blanks whichever u call it. When u said sth, u muz haf meant sth in ur mind. Hwever, when u told the other party abt it, some ppl leave the sentence hanging in mid air while some dun bothered to explain till the other person understand. And more often than not, it caused alot of miscommunication. I used to hate explaining. Nw I still do to a certain extent. But after realizing the advantages of making v.clear of ur pt, I'll try my very best nt to create miscommunication by explain my viewpt more clearly.

Thursday, 13/10/2005 - It's great to have someone who understand you well! Alot of times, we hear ppl complaining, my family, friends, partner dun understand me at all. It only goes to show tt sub-conciously we wish to have some1 who understand us juz as well as we understand ourselves. But there're exceptional cases when ppl dun even understand themselves. My idea of some1 who can understand me well is some1 who can sense when do I wana tok abt my problems & when do I juz wana be alone or juz haf them by my side w/o saying anything but juz provide their presence. And at times, u'll be tinking of the same thing & u find urself saying the same ting as the other person quite alot of times. I duno abt others, bt to me, I tink tt's a gd thing. To each of his own anyway..

Wednesday, 12/10/2005 - Respect each other's comfort zone! Family, friends or lovers..human r/s so to say..every1 has diff levels of comfort zone..I tink no 2 person can has exactly the same comfort zone. We shld try nt to invade others' comfort zone at the same time, give a gentle reminder to others if we find them 2b disturbing our comfort zones. No1 wld be able to noe hw u feel unless u tell them so. (".)

Gal, I tot it was nt obvious to u, bt it turns out 2b. Sori for making u feel the way u did for the past few days. 4give me for making u lose ur temper. I dun expect u to say anything or to give me any ans. I'm glad enough that u wld nt avoid me. And dun worry, u haf my promise tt I wld nt avoid u either. I duno hw u feel abt tis whole thing..bt if u were to ask me..all I noe is when it comes to affairs of the heart, I'd nv follow my mind..I listened to wat my heart has to say & follows it all the time..Hwever, dun be too bothered by tis whole matter..It's beyond our own ctrl.. You request for me nt to treat u too gd in fear tt u might fall for me..Gal, dun be silly..nv hold back ur true feelings..juz let it flow..There's no fault in liking some1 no matter who or wat kind of person the other party is.. I know u feel v.confused, I understand completely..Gif urself time..Tt's all I can gif u nw too.. When the time is rite, & the feelings are dere, things wld j

Tuesday, 11/10/2005 - 现在才最为重要！ Tomorrows never come, coz everyday is today. Y do we worried abt sth tt nv come? To me, I believe tt it's useless to worry abt TOMORROWS, instead live ur TODAY to the fullest so tt u wld nt haf alot of regretful YESTERDAYS. Like hw the saying goes, "Live ur day like it's the last!" Only then will u treasure ur time & cherish ppl ard u.

Monday, 10/10/2005 - 爱是唯一！ As long as LOVE residues in one's heart, miracles can happens. A mum can run faster than the fastest runner in the world juz to save her falling kid frm 4th storey. In anor part of the world, anor mum can lift up a car to release her kid trapped under the wheels. It's all bcoz of the love the mums haf for their kids. With love, there're sacrifices too. In v.poor c'tries, when there's lack of food available, parents were seen cutting off their own skinny meat for their kids. These are all parts & parcels of love. Pan Mei Chen once asked, "If some1 tries to stab u with a knife, would ur partner try to snatch the knife of the attacker or block the knife with his body for you?" To her, which I agree, during tt instant, our sub-conscious is at work, so if our partners shield the knife for us, they truly love us. However, it doesn't mean that the ones who tried to snatch the knife away don't care abt us. They merely like us

Sunday, 09/10/2005 - Life is fulfilling when you found your directions! You won't be like a ship in the middle of the sea floating directionless, won't be like a kite in the sky tied to a string flying all over the place. You won't keep complaining about how sianz life is b'coz you don't have anything to do. I'd found the directions for my life, my family, my friends, my work & my r/s. I'm occupied by all these elements in life, I hardly had time available to even say life is sianz. And I simply love the way it is nw! Life is so fulfilling for me now!

Saturday, 08/10/2005 - Simplicity is beauty! Simple can be a great beauty when u had too much of complicated, sophisicated stuff in ur life. Juz like her simple mindedness is her plus pt in my eyes. You have to experience the greatness of simplicity to realize its beauty. Words are hard to express the way I feel abt 2day 语录 & explain clearly to u wat it means.

I duno whether she noes or nt..neither do I noe if I want her 2 noe I like her.. I duno wat wld happens to our friendship..There's alot of uncertainties.. Her close frenz told me it's gd to stay tis way..She said the gal is juz like my ex, she wants to settle dw asap if possible & bear her own kids..She aso mentioned tt if I confessed, the gal most likely gona avoid me & I may juz lose a frenz in the end.. Mb like wat some others said too..The gal merely treat me like any other buddies wld treat me.. She feels comfortable wif me & simply like the kind of feelings nw.. Yah, pure platonic friendship..I believe tis kind of friendship exists..juz like me & fei xing xia.. Qi said, wait & c..coz time will tell. It may turn out 2b a little crush & the feeling will go away like wat I feel for the interesting gal. There's a slim chance tt she might juz fall 4 me too.. No pt doing anything nw & risk everything we shared.. Love makes me look like a fool..

Friday, 07/10/2005 - Some chances only come once! 2nd chance is nt wat every1 can get. And even if u get a chance to make up for what you have did, things might nv be the same again. The hurt caused stayed & the loss suffered can nv be retrieved. There are times we wanted to do sth badly, bt b'coz of some reasons, we held back & even 1 sec lagged in making a decision, the chance cld be gone! Mb we shld remind ourselves, "宁可杀错，不可放过!". haha >.<

Thursday, 06/10/2005 - Life is unpredictable! I guez every1 shld noe tis v.well. But sad to say, we normally forgot hw vunerable life is until we lose our close ones. Grand uncle passed away today. Though we weren't v.close wif him, a part of me still feel sad. He's considered a distant relative, but did see him afew times. Jie said frm tis incident, we muz remind ourselves tt we nv noe when wld we get separated frm each other, so we need to treasure those ard us - our family, friends, collegues, etc..

My hammie was pregnant..was so happy waiting for the arrival of babies hammies! But found my poor hammie's dead body in its cage when I got off frm wk 2day. My mum said it 难产. Haiz..y does it hafta be tis way? E'time, I breed hamsters, they nv managed to give birth. Twice alrd..sad sad.. =(

Wednesday, 05/10/2005 - Alot of things are on the thin border line! LOVE VS HATE; friends VS foes, friends VS lovers. I guess alot of us haf awhole lot more e.gs out dere. Sometimes, I simply hate tis thin line so much!!!

I'd got over my ex, miz her at times, bt nt v.often..I noe it's impossible b/w us anymore.. Tt interesting gal, it's over too..Alot of factors..I dun wish to tok abt it le aso.. Both of them are juz my history books meant 2b closed & nv 2b open again.. Bt I fall into anor pit, nw it's still shallow..Haiz, bt somehow, I'm afraid I'm digging it deeper myself..This shallow pit may end up being my own grave..I really duno.. V.confused over my feelings..Felt so vexed whenever I tink abt it..I'm nt flickle minded, nt at all..I dun fall in & out of love like it seems 2b..bt I juz nid 2c the need for me to pull out of it & I'll do so.. This new character of my book..Like my poly mate, when ppl told me I wld like her 1 day..I didn't even gif it a 2nd thought.. I duno, I really duno..She doesn't belongs to my world.. I wish I can be like my frenz who's happy juz by enjoying the presence of her admirer & knowing they can nv be 2gether..A

Tuesday, 04/10/2005 - Ignorance is not bliss but self denial! Times when we refused to accept the hard cold fact, we deceive ourselves. We tried to find all sort of excuses to convince every1. However we all noe, u can convince the whole world, bt nt ur own heart. Stop living in a world of white lies to urself! I'm nt refering to any1, bt every1..haha >.< Well, guez it's more of to myself ba..

Monday, 03/10/2005 - 静观其变！ Juz sit & wait 2c wat the outcome of certain thing wld be. Coz at times, there's really nth we can do to a particular situation. Or when the current situation is nt at all bad, y wld we wana risk making it worst by doing sth to it? Though we may tink things wld be better if we do sth to it, we really ought to tink of the consequences.

Sunday, 02/10-2005 - Do it there and then! Hw many times haf u been wanting to do sth bt alwiz tink to urself tt u'll do it ltr or some other days? And most of the times, the things remain undone; mb till the day u pass away even. Some things that can be done now at the thought of it, juz go & do it. Or if it needs abit more planning, go ahead & plan. Y wait? We all noe time waits for no man. And no man has the equal amt of time left, neither do we noe hw much time we haf left. Dun live or die wif regrets!

Saturday, 01/10/2005 - Friendships put to tests can withstand all difficulties! True friendships can go thru all storms & remain intact. When some ships sink into the seas wif obstacles, dun cry over them. Their friendships were never ours to begin wif. Care for the ships that had withstand all difficulties wif u!