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Friday, 30/09/2005 - To you is nothing, to others it maybe everything! This is especially for my CHICKEN EATER! I swear I really didn't 4gt ur b'day. I noe u're disappointed. I alwiz tot there's alwiz later to do some stuff. I failed to realize tt the hurt the word, "LATER" wld bring. Though u said I'm nt the main factor in making u sad/disappointed. Bt I really do feel bad. Coz I may haf rem, bt I didn't make abit more effort in juz stopping for awhile wat I'm doing & surprised u wif even a short msg. It's the 2nd yr, I noe..I swear nv to let it happens again! Once again, HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY! Eating chicken wings can nv be as gd as eating them with YOU! Miss those days, man! But the 2 of us are supposed 2b on a diet competition. haha (".) Muz take v.gd care over dere! Shall miss ya till the day u're back! Rem, don't let me be the last to noe..>.<

Thursday, 29/05/2005 - 当局者迷！ When u gt involved in certain things, u normally failed to see the whole picture. Some factors become blur to u. So we need to pull ourselves out & view the situation we are in nw as a outsider. Maybe things wld start to fall in place piece by piece & u can analyze the whole situation better.

Wednesday, 28/09/2005 - A wrong move can be fatal! Weighing the pros & cons is an impt decision making step. Bt even when we did tt, at times, we still chose the path wif more cons. Humans are juz like tt. Sometimes, we let our hearts drive us crazy. They took ctrl over the mind and the decisions wld only cause the heart 2b hurt & the mind to go bonkers when things went wrong. Y oh Y?

Tuesday, 27/09/2005 - 爱情虽可贵，友情价更高！ I guess most of us would experience this once or more in our lives. We met some1 who became our frenz & as time goes by, we develop feelings for the frenz. We're so afraid to proceed further bcoz we're so afraid of losing a frenz if the r/s dun wk out. It's so hard to come out wif a decision..haiz

Monday, 26/09/2005 - Don't be too quick to judge! We normally start to set perceptions & judge ppl or things when we 1st haf our encounter wif them. Bt hw true is it? For myself, alot of times, 1st impression is nt at all true. Hwever, it's undeniable that every1 form their perception on others at 1st sight. I can only urge every of us to look deeper into the things or ppl b4 we judge them. Bt who are we to judge others anyway?

Sunday, 25/09/2005 - Talking requires skills! Let me illustrate with the wisdom words of 妙音居士 :- 《说话的技巧》 急事，慢慢地说！ 大事，清楚地说； 小事，幽默地说。 没把握的事，谨慎地说; 没发生的事，不要胡说。 做不到的事，别乱说； 伤害人的事，不能说。 讨厌的事，对事不对人地说。 开心的事，看场合说； 伤心的事，不要见人就说。 别人的事，小心地说； 自己的事，听听自己的心怎么说。 现在的事，做了再说。 未来的事，未来再说。 如果对我有不满意的地方， 请一定要对我说！ ~妙音居士共勉之~ (The Art Of Speech) Urgent matter, speak slowly! Big issue, speak clearly; Small issue, said it with humor. Thing you have no confidence in, be cautious with your words; Yet to happen stuff, don't anyhow say. Tasks you can't do, don't said you can; Things that harm others, can't be said. Unpleasant incidents, be objective and not subjective. Joyful matters, watch for occasion to share; Sad stuff, don't just tell everyone you see. Other people affairs, said with care; Personal stuff, listen to what your heart said. Current issues, do it then say. Future issues, discuss it in the future. If you are unhappy with me in any areas, be sure to tell me in person!

Saturday, 24/09/2005 - Learn to be a kid at times! As we slowly grows up, we grow out of our kids' behavior too. However, I tink we nid to get bk sometimes to lead a happier life. Do some silly stuff tt u tink u'll do if u're still a kid nw. Play little games, act like a clown or watever u can tink of. It helps to relieve stress. A kid learn to laugh at himself & life goes on. They wun be bothered by wat had happened. Be it a fight wif his siblings or a fall from the bicycle. They juz get over it in no time. And I believe a kid is alwiz pure at the heart!

Friday, 23/09/2005 - 世事难预料！ We can try to forcast & predict. But there will alwiz be times when things simply happened beyond our ctrl. All we can do is to accept them or make the best of wat had alrd happened. No pt crying over spilled milk!

Thursday, 22/09/2005 - Back up your words with your actions! Everyone noes actions speak louder than words. The worst thing u can do is to kip making empty promises wif juz ur words & nt fulfilling them. And u nv noe hw hurting ur empty promises can be to the other party. So don't be a NATO! - No Action Talk Only.

Wednesday, 21/09/2005 - Life is full of surprises! When u nv or least expected sth or some1, they simply appears out of the blue. And at times, it even stayed for quite some time. Or when u were so down on ur luck, sth v.gd juz happened wif the click of a finger. So, look in places whr they're least expected & dun expect too much, coz things may juz happened during the least unexpected times.

Tuesday, 20/09/2005 - Things are often more than the surface we see! Let me tell u a story to illustrate tis pt. Once, 2 monks, 1 old & 1 young were travelling ard to experience life. 1st night, they came to a farmer & his wife's hut to stay for the nite. They offered them wif the best food they have in the house & let them slp on their only bed. The next day, the farmer & his wife woke up 2 find their only source of income, a cow has died. The 2nd nite, the monks stop by a wealthy man's hse. He gave them a bowl of white rice each and let them slp in the storage rm. At the corner of the storage rm, there was bars of gold hidden in the wall. The old monk slowly bit by bit took cement & sealed the hole. The next day as they left the wealthy man's hse, the young monk cld take it no more. He yelled his teacher, "I don't understand. U have been teaching us about kindess. Bt ur actions are contradicting wat u said. The farmer & his wife were so ki

Monday, 19/09/2005 - Aim for perfection! Don't juz do it, give it ur best shot & do it rite the 1st time! Like they said, aim for the sky & even if u dun reach, u'll fall among the clouds.

Sunday, 18/09/2005 - Change is unavoidable! No matter it's gd or bad, in life, there're certain changes we can't prevent frm happening. I used to tot tt alot of things wld remain the same. Like kinship, friendship, relationship. Bt ppl changes. Some for the better, some for the worse. And it's all beyond our ctrl. Some of the changes we see in ppl close to us is hurting, bt there's really nth we can do. I believe no matter hw much some1 close has changed, we shld still support them in whichever we can. If the changes are bad, we may nt be able to support/encourage the change, bt we can accept them as they are. Bcoz forcing them to go bk the old way may nt mean true happiness to them.

Saturday, 17/09/2005 - Freedom is great! That's 1 of the reasons I hesitate to go after the gals I like. Scared of losing my freedom after I got attached. haha (".) I'm nt really old, still v.young at 22 yrs. Dun feel tt I shld be tied to some1 & lose some of my freedom. Coz everything tt u do, u hafta considered the consequences to 2 persons. Well, of coz there wld aso be pros abt being att. Let's us juz let nature takes its course. What will happens, will happens..so y bother so much, yah?

Friday, 16/09/2005 - Live life the way you won't have regrets! Everyone has different viewpts on different things. Even for a single matter, diff ppl haf their own diff pts of views. Even if the whole world is against the way u're handling tt matter, it doesn't means they're rite. Bt even if they're rite to a certain extend, it's defintely nt the way u want it to happen. Alot of things, it doesn't really matters alot of we're doing it the rite way. For me, I believe in doing things the way u strongly believe tt u'll nt die wif regrets after doing it.

Thursday, 15/09/2005 - 千万不要意气用事! Doing things out of rashness may juz costs u alot. Be it material or nt. Alwiz try to kip a cool mind no matter wat happens. Consider the consequences of ur actions b4 u do it. It'll only be the best for u.

My new pet - Flick! Presenting to you my new pet called Flick! Dun ask me y, I juz tot of tt name. haha =)

Wednesday, 14/09/2005 - A little thought goes a long way! Sometimes, u juz nid to be abit more thoughtful, show abit more care & it can goes a long way to warm some1's heart. Juz a short msg to a frenz u haven been seeing for ages. A simple thank you to show tt u appreciate the help. All these don't cost a cent(sending a sms does cost 5cents), but it makes alot of difference to the lives of others.

My Ohana is so swt! They noe I finally can let dw the stone in my heart & move on wif life. I noe they're the happiest to noe tt news. They bought me a triple decker cheesecake from Coffee Bean, a piggy & doraemon mooncake for me! Oh gosh! So touched man! Thx dear mummy, qiqi & xiao yu! Love OHANA to bits! *hugs & kisses*

Tuesday, 13/09/2005 - Anything can be make interesting if you want to! Ppl doing the same thing can haf diff perspective. They mb doing the same ting, bt they dun tink the same way abt the stuff they're doing. The level of satisfaction they get is aso different. So whether u're gona do a boring or interesting task, it's largely depending on u!

Monday, 12/09/2005 - Learning to let go is hard, but finally letting go is a relief! This is hw I truly feel today. It's the end. No, it's the begining of the end! I'm gona let go frm 2day onwards. A promise I made to myself. Or rather a principle I kept to. After all these yrs, I'm juz waiting for tis sentence. And finally she tells me, "its impossible for us to be together again". See! It's isn't hard for her to say & for me, it's the easiest way to make me give up completely. But so far, only 1 other gal beside her say tis to me. 1 of the gals I used to like alot said she will nv say tis sentence to me. She told me, "I want u to gif up on me bcoz u want to & nt bcoz of wat I do or say. Coz I nv wana regret 1 day if we were meant 2b 2gether, bt I was the 1 to ask u leave." Tt's y till nw, I still care alot for her. If u say I had nt gif up on her, it's nt true either. Coz I'm v.sure, the way I'm treating her nw i

这也是我最近很喜欢的歌，我还有未来能期盼吗？ 我怎么还在记忆里徘徊 一个我最爱的人已不在 从没想到你竟然选择离开 手机号码还在随时都开为了你不能改 总在期盼哪天你真的回得来 爱在我心里面 像个小孩要呵护依赖 没有人可以一口气说个明白 等待你接受我的爱 等待我给你的未来 让我这样抱紧着你不分开 我要你接受我的爱 相信是上天的安排 让我可以手牵着你永远不要分开

My fave song as of now..I feel that the lyrics clearly describe how I feel.. 我想过一件事 不是坏的事 一直对自己坚持 爱情的意识 像风没有理由 轻轻吹着走 谁爱谁没有所谓的对于错 不管时间 说着我们在一起有多坎坷 我不敢去证实 爱你两个字 不是对自己矜持 也不是讽刺 别人都在说我其实很无知 这样的感情被认定很放肆 我很不服我还在想着那件事 如果你已经不能控制 每天想我一次 如果你因为我而诚实 如果你看我的电影 听我爱的CD 如果你能带我一起旅行 如果你决定跟随感觉 为爱勇敢一次 如果你说我们有彼此 如果你会开始相信这般恋爱心情 如果你能给我如果的事 我只要你一件如果的事 我会奋不顾身地去爱你

Saturday, 10/09/2005 - 开心与否在于你！ We often said tis or that makes us sad. Other things or ppl makes us feel dw. Bt we failed to realize it's us tt allows them to influence hw we feel. Try ur very best to be happy no matter wat r the things tt happened or hw ppl r treating u..At least, I'm trying v.hard..1 day, I'll be fine..

I'm hurt, very hurt indeed. I'm going mad soon! I can't stand it anymore! Y can't she juz ask me to gif up? Y can't I gif up on her? Y is giving up & holding on equally hurting? I hate myself! Hate myself for not being able 2b the 1 she wants 2b wif. Hate myself for nt being able 2 gif up. Hate myself for bringing so much emotional, physical & spiritual hurt to myself! She'll nv noe hw much I love her..It doesn't matters either..Even if she said she noes, she wun understand..Unless she experiences it herself..to love some1 wif all u haf even when u noe there will be no outcome.. Being a frenz is wat she wants, having fun is wat she's doing nw, having some1 for her is wat she desire..I guez. I duno..my mind can't think. My head is so heavy nw..It feels like it's gona burst anytime too..My heart is shattering into a million pieces too..

Friday, 09/09/05 - Don't just see what you want to see; see what you ought to! We as humans alwiz like to filter out the things we see & only see wat we want 2c. It's juz self deceive. Y do we hafta be tt way? Coz it's the easier way out? Be more rational!

Thursday, 08/09/2005 - Your ignorance is defintely not someone else's bliss! Choosing to ignore may be bliss to u, bt most often than nt, it'll never be some1 else's bliss. Nv run away from the fact, face it. Talk abt it openly. Escaping can nv solve a thing.

I wish I knew what is on your mind.. I wish I knew when can I become your prince.. I wish I knew where to head to without you by my side.. I wish I knew which is the path to take that is best for both of us.. I wish I knew why you confess when you are not ready to commit.. I wish I knew how to give you real happiness..

Wednesday, 07/09/2005 - 没有梦是不能完成的，坚持到底！ Juz press on! 1 day, ur wildest dream can come true too! No1 ever tot there wld be a day man can land on the moon, bt we did. Nth is impossible, e'thing can be done eventually, it's juz a matter of time.

Tuesday, 06/09/2005 - It takes a hero to face up to his mistakes! Heros are nt perfect ppl. They makes mistakes too. But wat differentiate heros from cowards is tt heros admit their mistakes & face the responsibilities of their mistakes!

Ppl said u're making use of me, my feelings & all.. Ppl told me to give up.. Ppl scolded me for being dumb.. YOU said YOU care for me! YOU told me YOU adore me too! YOU praised me for being a nice guy! I said I really LOVE YOU! I told YOU I want to get back together! I risked everything else just to continue waiting for YOU! Your words are true I believe, Your actions are sincere I trust, Your feelings are real I know.

Monday, 05/09/05 - Time can create wonders & break them too! Time can prove our love for our loved ones is true, it can aso caused the distance b/w 2 persons to drift apart. It creates & destroy w/o a trace & w/o mercy. If u can't managed time well, u'll be managed by it & become its slave.

Sunday, 04/09/2005 - Until you are certain, don't tell others! If u start telling others abt things u're nt even certain of urself, it would only caused alot of misunderstandings. Rumors starts, gossips goes on, feelings are hurt, etc. What's the pt? Be sure 2 kip ur mouth shut till u noe it's true and ask to make sure tt's the truth u're hearing if u suspect sth.

Saturday, 03/09/2005 - Not every path is suitable for everyone! Some ppl takes the easy way out, some prefers to take the challenge & go the difficult way. Different ppl would want different life, therefore takes all the different paths in life. Dun force some1 else to go ur path coz it may nt mean happiness to them as it is to u!

I duno if I did the rite ting. I'd withdraw frm my course. Yes, every1 told me it's a waste. I noe it muz be a waste. $$, time, effort & mb even my better future. Bt I really cldn't stand the stress. I"m tired, emotionally & physically. I was so drained out of my energy. My god ma said if I go chiong less often, den I'll haf enuf slp. Bt it's nt juz tt. I dun understand a single thing for the theory. Nt at all. And it's only my 1st sem. It's so so so different from poly stds, so much higher. I tot it will be easy & I cld handle it, bt I was wrong, totally wrong. I woke up at 4am to study for my test, bt I gt mental block. And I felt so much like crying, bt I didn't. Coz I'd told myself nv to tear anymore. So I woke my mum up & told her I wana quit sch. All she said was, "U noe I'd nv interfere wif ur decision, if u're really stressed up & tired, juz quit loh." My mum is alwiz so understanding..I felt like a

Friday, 02/09/05 - Do not be influenced by others! Sorry pals tt I didn't touch my blog for so long. Coz I was kind of affected by a grp of frenz commenting abt my 语录, saying it's nt wat a blog is supposed to be for. I 4gt tt I haf anor big grp of u waiting for my 语录 everyday to end ur nite or start ur day wif greater hopes & be more optimistic. Shall nt be influenced by any1 else 1 anymore. So shall restart my stuff again. And aso to response to tt grp of frenz abt updating things tt's happening to me recently, I shall try to post nt confidential stuff here to update u folks!