A day of mixed emotions...

It'd been a very long time since I last blogged.
For the past one week, I was quite stressed as Mummy was admitted to Khoo Teck Puat Hospital ICU.

My sisters stayed over at the hospital to look after her.
For me, I'll head over after work every day.
On usual days, I'm already not having enough sleep.
So, with the madness rush, you can guessed how tired I was.

It doesn't help when the exams period is here.
Exams is a killer & revision is a real torture.
I wondered how much brain cells were killed.
To be honest, the paper was easy IF I'd read through ALL the chapters.
Nope, I'm not being complacent. It's just that I simply hate school.

Now I only wish for a pass so that I can successfully get the CAT cert for my boss.
Yes, she makes me go through this 2 years of pain & suffering.
Yup, I heard you. It's good to go for further studies, blah blah blah.
It's just me lah, I think I'm not cut out for studies.
I'm never gona take up any course in the near future.
Thank god it was being sponsored by the company! =P

But I think it wasn't a wise move.
Now that I've studied & understand more, I'm start to feel that accounting line may not be what I want.
Perhaps it's also because of the added workload of my new portfolio which I dread for now.

Like I've told CL some time back; when the time comes for me to change job, I'm thinking of switching over to what she's doing now.
So, if you are still in where you are now, I hope we can be colleagues, yah? =P

Mum was discharged this afternoon. We were all thrilled! v(^_^)o
Hope she stays healthy from this moment on. Gona watch her diet & sleeping habits as well.
Wonder when can we PULL her out of the house for some brisk walking though...

It's the closing period & I've wanted to stay OT but decided to go home for Ohana's welcome dinner for Mum instead.
Coz though I still like my job, I LOVE MY OHANA MORE! (^^,)

However, the first sight that greeted me upon stepping into my room was not a pleasant one...
Just like usual, I greeted my baby who would normally response to my call as it's either play or makan time for him!
Today, he didn't move an inch; he simply lay there in his fave spot with flies around him.
My heart sank... I know what it means.

Surely it's not because the cage was dirty because I've just changed it last night.
Praying for a miracle; I knocked on his cage in hope of seeing him with his startled & blur face.
But... it never happen.

He looks as if he was just sleeping peacefully, isn't it?

Yoshi was special.
I can't find the right words to describe.

Yoshi - 游戏
27 Aug 2010 - 07 Dec 2011

I stood there watching his lifeless body.

Usually, I was calm and knew the immediate thing to do.
Yes, take a plastic bag, dump everything in & throw down the rubbish chute.

Tonight, my hands trembled a bit, my mind was in a whirlpool.

I closed he cage door.

And on our way to dinner, I went to buy a pack of soil.

Taking an empty flower pot, I filled half of it with the fresh soil.

Then I lifted Yoshi out of his cage, his body was stiff & slightly warm.

He's the first pet I ever carried the corpse in my hands.

After placing him on the soil, my hands trembled once more.

My heart felt as if it was knotted.
Pausing for some moments, I started to pour more soil onto his body.

My heart felt a stab; I want to cry but there came no tears.

It's painful, really very painful to bury your own "son".

But I know he has gone to a better world to be with his other hammie siblings and friends...

Yoshi, may you rest in peace and be happy wherever you are now.
Papa loves you! =)