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When I finally feel the real meaning of, "NO ONE UNDERSTANDS WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH!", I realized I had been LYING all these while. Alot of ppl often came to me for advice. They told me hw sad/down they were and wat they were going through. I symathise wif them, gave them advice, console them whenever I cld, lend them a shoulder to lean on & said, "I understand what you are going through now, I truly do." Wat a pack of bullshit I was saying. Do I really understand wat each & individual family members or frenz is going through? Maybe I never did. Coz I strongly feel that no one understand what I am going through at all. So wat makes me so sure tt I understand wat others were going through?! I'd seen so many others living for others and end up nt enjoying their life or feel the true happiness that they derserved. When we were young, some of us studied hard for their parents, den we fight for our careers for ur partners & we strive even harder at work ...

I wasn't feeling @ ease after having my fortune being told afew mths back. So I decide to haf my fortune being told again. Mb I shldn't have. I got a name card of a fortune teller who was said 2b v.accurate. And guess wat, she was actually frm the same hometown as me, Batu Pahat in M'sia. Today, she came Singapore for her biz. So I booked an appt & haf my fortune 2b told. She cfm the thing I was worried abt ever since my 1st fortune telling. She too said that I wld meet wif an accident @ the lunar age of 29. And if I can make thru it, I wld be slightly better off @ age 30. Maybe not knowing is better than knowing after all...

YES! The long awaited photos is now uploaded! These are my presents frm my dear for our 1st month anniversary. AND inside the little box full of sweets & chocolates is this cute little beetle car. My fave prez is the cute little Chip who's slping wif me every nite nw. hehe >. I wanted to wear the boxers & take a picture but my dear forbid me to do so & the readers are nt as interested as my dear 2c me in it. I wanted to take a close up of the 100 Plus can too but my dear is shy to let others read the mushy words she had written on it.

The longest interview I ever had! 1 hr! Mb it's nth to some of u, bt all my previous interviews were nt longer than 10 mins. haha =D Anyway, the interviewer, Christine is a v.nice & friendly lady. She's v.str8 4ward too. She told me tt I am the best candidate she interviewed & I have quite a good chance of getting in. She'll hafta get back to her boss & let me noe again next wk. Christine said she likes my attitude. The position I am filling up is an admin assistant. She's looking for some1 to go in line wif her & revamp the admin dept. Coz if she wants to inject new ideas to the co, she needs to start wif her own team & has their support 1st. And she said she needs great help in that now. The new team player would helps her wif analysis to present to the big boss too. Christine said tis is a gold pot area wif alot of things to learn as long as one is willing to. They have a flat plan concept office. They tried to maintain the least hierarchy presenc...

爱上你 让我的世界更加美丽 爱上你 自然如呼吸 爱上你 甜蜜得身边的人都妒忌 爱上你 是我最珍惜的幸福 只有你能了解我所有的情绪 只有你能包容我不时的坏脾气 只有你懂得应该如何哄我开心 所以我爱你 有些人爱到害怕所以从此不再爱 有些人爱过所以相信不须要在爱 有些人爱到自己名字也记不起来 我爱到不能想象没有你的未来 This song is v.suitable for my dear to sing for me, I guess she agrees completely too. Now waiting for Kelly's karaoke MTV for tis song 2b out in KBOX, den she can sings to me! hehe ^_^

My dear is the cook for 2nite! She has a marvellous idea and that is to cook dinner wif eggs as the main ingredients! So let's see wat do we haf for dinner... 1st, there is this dish of fried long beans wif eggs. 2nd, we tried a dish we saw on a receipe book; 鸡蛋包肉碎. 3rd, dear's fave 洋葱炒蛋. Bt I hate 洋葱! However, dear puts in alot of effort in preparing 2nite dinner, so I ate every dishes she cooks. They were delicious! And the only lucky ones beside me who get to taste my dear's cooking is my family members! Coz dear has alrd become part of my life! That's y I said, "爱是她煮洋葱炒蛋逼你吃，而你大口大口地吞，就为了见她会心一笑！" Tell me, hw can I possibly not love a woman like my dear? *muacks* My dear gal, I LOVE YOU!

So the long awaited surprise is here! Guess wat my dear got for me? haha (".) Bet u wun be able to guess coz I didn't expect these prez frm her too! My sweet & creative gf made 4 cards for each of the gifts. And I was to choose the cards 1 by 1 in order to determine which gift I get to open 1st. My 1st prez is a Chip soft toy. Wat Chip, I heard some of u asked. It's the Chip & Dale chipmunks. Yes, my dear bought a Chip soft toy for me. Nw the cute little fellow is acc me to slp on dear's behalf. There's absolutely nth wrong for a gf to buy a soft toy for her bf. At least I noe me & afew other guy frenz of mine appreciate that. And we're nt afraid to say we do love a soft toy to hug every nw & then. My 2nd prez won the most creative award of the yr! Dear bought a 100 plus for me & wrote on it. Those who noes me well shld noe tt 100 plus is my fave drink! It has an impt instruction, "DO NOT OPEN!". As for the other wordings, u can co...

Yeah! We'd make it to our 1st month finally! We didn't turned out the way others tot we wld. In fact, we had bring our r/s to a new higher level. Our love is deeper, our bonds are stronger & our faith is growing by the days! My 4ever so swt dear has been trying v.hard to give me a surprise. And I can tell u tis time, I have absolutely no clue wat is the surprise. She's keeping her mouth tight shut no matter hw I tried to find out. I am alrd v.touched even b4 I receive the surprise she's planning. So may I ask, "How can I possibly not LOVE such a wonderful woman?" With her, I found new confidence and strength. Though I was a confident person to start with. haha =D She taught me love that was so pure & innocent, the kind of love alot of people whom I know looks forward to. Never was I so determined to work hard for a future & build a love nest. My dear is like a pure & innocent crystal - a real beauty. Her mind is still clear just like her consci...

Heard these on FM93.3 today. 2 short stories:- 1st one was there used 2b a piece of wall. 1 day, a nail was being hammered into it. The wall shouted, "Ouch! Juz y do u haf to poke me everytime? Wat did I do wrong?" The nail replied, "U shldn't blame me! U shld blame the person who's using the hammer to hit me instead!" Well, @ 1st, I cldn't guez wat the story is trying to say either. So the DJ said there's a morale for tis story. And that is, "People often tends to blame others for the faults being done. But sometimes, the fault lies within ther person himself/herself." As for the word, 'BLAME', if u were to separate it, 'B' & 'LAME'. So whenever u're blaming some1 else, u're juz being LAME! The explaination though abit crappy, bt does make abit of sense lah hor? The 2nd story goes...Long long time ago, there was tis certain worshipper who keep praying to his God. "Oh God! Pls @ least let me win the ...

在安静无人的夜晚 我静静的躺在床上 脑海里回忆着我们 在一起度过的日子 想起你给我的惊喜 情书卡片绒毛娃娃 心里满是甜甜滋味 想着你的一举一动 眼泪不知觉流下来 因为当那天来临时 我将失去你的关心 不舍害怕伤心恐慌 无数感觉涌入心里 好好珍惜剩余时间 这是我现在的愿望

Yes, I am going back m'sia again. Tis time is for 清明. And as usual, I noe my dear gal wld miz me as much as I miz her. So as usual, I wld leave behind an entry for her. Of coz as usual, my viewers are gona start commenting hw mushy I can be. Bt well, it's juz a small little thing I can do for my dear mah. (^^.) B4 I end tis blog wif a photo of my cute face, I have sth to tell my dear. Dear, I am truly sorry for letting u feel so uncomfortable 2day. I really dun mean it. Bt I'm glad u tell me hw u felt. I wld take note of my behavior the next time. I am not angry @ receiving ur comments bcoz I respect u & I want u 2 noe tt I really do. U're my gf & nt anything or any1 else. U have all the rights to tell me the things u said 2nite. Pls take gd care of urself when I am away & in the future even if I am no longer wif u, k? Coz u're alwiz some1 I care alot abt. I LOVE YOU! And here, presenting my nice nice photo! hehe >.

Humans are weird creatures. You often hear ppl say,"If only I knew." "If I can turn back time.." "If I have a chance to make up for it.." And often than not, ppl only gt to realize wat they once had after they lost it. Then they wished they had treasured wat they had. Yet, with the things they still have, they would make the same mistake by taking things for granted. If u noe tml is ur last day on earth, wat would u haf done? If u noe there's an end, would u treasure more b4 the deadline comes? I would and I certainly did. But I think I had not done enuf. I would continue to do more. I knew we would be ending the way we are nw tis yr end. Alot of things abt us are nt certain & unstable. Bt bcoz I noe in the future, I can't treat her the way I do nw, all I want nw is to treat her well, treat her right. I tried my best nt to let her be sad or disappointed. Though @ times, I failed. 我要用我这有限的时间给于她我这辈子想给她的东西与感觉。 In the future, no1 noes wat will happ...

虽然你不能决定生命的长度， 但是；你可以开拓他的宽度。 虽然你不能左右天气， 但是；你可以改变心情。 虽然你不能选择容貌， 但是；你可以展开笑容。 虽然你不能影响别人， 但是；你可以充实自己。 虽然你不能预知明天， 但是；你可以善用今天。 虽然你不能样样顺利， 但是；你可以事事尽力。 虽然你不能凡事尽如己意， 但是；你可因尽了心而无怨无悔。

What a mouth-watering dinner! Yes! 2day, dear & I were the chefs for the nite. We cooked dinner! And what did we cook? It's western set dinner! Let me upload the photos to show u! hehe (^^.) I would say it's a success for our 1st attempt 2gether. Coz there were no burnt food or uncooked ones either. And it looks nice & tastes nice as well! Let me illustrate for u wat we cooked. There are french fries, scramble eggs, both cream of chicken soup & mushroom soup, ham, hotdogs, baked beans, coleslaw and of coz the main dish - chicken chop! Yeah, and we have orange juice for drinks. A simple dinner that brought warmth to the hearts! (,")(".)

Heard this song on FM 93.3, it's a whole new feeling altogether. Nv really take note of the lyrics in the past..Mb coz I didn't met my right gal back then..Nw I dedicate this song to my dear coz she's so swt! She bought dinner to my wkplace 2nite as I was wking OT! Thx dear! Though it didn't showed on my face. Bt I was really very touched! (^^.) Luv ya! *muacks* 周华建 - 我是真的付出我的爱 别走开给我一个时间对你说爱 手触着心缓缓呼吸 深深地感觉心在说我爱你 哦宝贝给我一个时间对你说爱 用我的心化做星星 填满你寂寞的夜里 从来不曾有过这样的感觉 迫切渴望拥有每一个永远 就让转动的世界停留在眼前 让我对你说对你说 我是真的付出我的爱 从今以後不会再更改 哦让我拥有你到未来 我是真的付出我的爱 从今以後就不会再更改 让我拥有你全部的爱

This entry is specially for u. Congrats on ur successful appeal! Really hope u'll put in more effort & wk hard for ur future tis time! Tis sounds like crap to me too when I was ur age, bt I still hafta tell u nw, "To a young adult of ur age nw, studies are still the most impt of all!" No matter wat happens in life, never give up. There's alwiz alot of paths for us to take in order to reach a destination. Even though some paths are tougher & longer, we have no choice bt to take them instead. Mb we'll learn more things & see things clearly while on the difficult paths. Juz take them as lessons of life which gives us valuable knowledge. Learn sth on ur way. We're cousins by fate. There's a reason y we're closer. Though u alwiz bully me wif ur words when I'm so much senior than u, bt I still care abt u. hehe >.

I think there's a slight mistake in part of these lyrics, bt even when I listen to these songs over & over again, I still can't make out the words..hehe>. 温岚 - 祝我生日快乐 我知道伤心不能改变什么 那么 让我诚实一点 诚实 难免有不能控制的宣洩 只要关上了门不必理谁 #一个人坐在空荡包厢里面 手机 让它休息一夜 难 像切歌切掉回忆的画面 眼泪不能流过十二点 *生日快乐 我对自己說 蜡烛点了 寂寞亮了 生日快乐 泪也融了 我要谢谢你給的你拿走的一切 @还爱你帶一点恨 还要时间 才能平衡 热恋伤痕 幻灭重生 祝我生日快乐 Repeat #*@@ 卢巧音 - 至少走得比你早 你没有想过我会说分手 也许太习惯我在你左右 虽然离开你有很多理由 可看见你这样惊讶也足够 我想得比你多陪你一起更寂寞 我性格比你强怎样做你的绵羊 我年纪比你少不信快乐找不到 抬起头开了口 最后我比你骄傲 从此不坐你的牢 想不到你的好记得和你的争吵 想到老可到老可是和你做不到 如果你爱得比我少 至少我走得比你早 你没有想过我会说分手 随非以为我什么都忍受 就算你这时候努力挽留 不过是你不能接受我先走 我想得比你多陪你一起更寂寞 我性格比你强怎样做你的绵羊 我年纪比你少不信快乐找不到 抬起头开了口 最后我比你骄傲 从此不坐你的牢 想不到你的好记得和你的争吵 想到老可到老可是和你做不到 如果你爱得比我少 至少我走得还早 轰轰烈烈地开口 最后我比你骄傲 从此不坐你的牢 想不到你的好记得和你的争吵 想到老可到老可是和你做不到 如果你爱得比我少 至少我走得比你早 梁静茹 - Fly Away 这一次是我自己为自己下的决定 很小心你说慢慢来别怕来不及 如果我还有一点点不安或者迟疑 我不会对你的反应那么好奇 多远啊其实也很不愿意 其实也不想回忆 谁没等到错过了流星 我们啊交集在这意外的假期 一定那里见过你 一定曾经梦见你 Fly Away 无穷无尽是你深邃的眼睛 看着你就可以 让我茫茫人海里感到安定 Fly Away 当我不顾一切无止尽追寻 有一个人 有一颗心 才仅默默之中在那里 这一次连我自己都...

My dear is getting so nervous abt her new job. She alwiz has so low self-confidence abt herself. Bt nvm, I'll help her to build it up bit by bit. Dear, no1 is born to noe e'thing. And I'm sure u can pick up the new responsibilities in no time given ur diligence & willing to learn attitude. Believe in urself! Even if the new job really suxs big time, I'm alwiz here for u. A strong shoulder for u to lean or a listening ear for u to 发牢骚, k? Many ppl said feelings, behaviour & attitude 2wards ur partner changed after u get 2gether. Bt I beg to differ. At least for my case, if u were to say changed for the better, I cldn't agree more. If u were to say I wld reduce my love, care & concern for my dear, it's totally wrong den. I'm going to shower her wif more love, care & concern & is defintely nt gona take her for granted. 能在一起，绝对不是理所当然。继续爱下去，也并非轻而易举的事。但我会努力，竭尽所能给你一切最好的，为你无条件的付出！I'll protect u by all means & nt let u come to any harm! 我爱...

It sounds abit silly, bt well, I was overwhelmed when I rec'd the $0.50 frm my cust today. "You have worked hard, the extra is for you." That's the kind of job statisfaction u get in svc line, rite? It's nt the amt of tip given. Juz like I told my dear, even if I only gt 10 cents or even 5 cents, I'll still be happy. Coz tt's the cust's reward to me for a job well done! (^^.)

We had been going thru alot of stuff. And due to alot of reasons, we had nv officially become an item. Today is her b'day. I didn't noe wat comes over me bt somehow, there's a force inside me telling me to do it! I msged her, "Dear, I duno wat e outcome of tis msg wld be, bt smhw deep in my heart, there's a force asking me 2 do it..I was thinking we did't reali bc official due 2 alot of reasons in e past..I believe nw we're stable enuf 2 bring our r/s 2 a higher level..So may I take ur big day 2 officially ask u 2b my gf? (",)" Bt who noes, she called me and want me to say it myself. I took 10 mins struggling to say out the 11 words! So paiseh..*shy* cld still feel my ear burning nw.. "你可不可以做我的女朋友？” At 1st, she said she didn't promise to give me an ans after I asked. Den she said her ans is the ans I wished for. Bt finally she said, “可以！” and she hang up the fone wif shyness. hehe >. Yes, I'm announcing to the whole world now that ...