The 1st & the last. . .

I need to vent it somewhere. . .
Had been thinking of it since I sent out the sms. . .

Today, I did sth bad or rather not very nice.
Dun start asking me wat, why, when, where or how.
No excuse wld make up a gd reason, I'm just sorry to the party(ies) involved.

It's the first time & will be the very last.
I wld never do it again. The feeling of guilt is so strong.
It's still linger like how I wld have smelled after being in a room of 1,000 smokers.
(Nth against smokers, juz a description.)

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