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Sometimes, when we come to the crossroads of our lives & it's time to make decisions, be it big or small, take ur time to think wat's best for u. There's no rite or wrong, bt tink of the consequences & most impt, take responsibilities for ur own actions! Friday, 29/04/05 - 等待未必有结果，但冲动地草率作决定也不能解决问题！

Often, when we had afew incidents whereby everyting goes wrong continuously in a day, u start to tink u haf a bad day. Bt dun, never do tt! Take alook at my 语录 for the day... 遇到不顺利，不如先深呼吸，冷静下来，安抚心情。再大声告诉自己：“今天的不顺利已到现在为止，下一秒起，一切会更好！”

Usually, I would tell people when I sent in my music diary. But this time, I didn't tell anyone, neither did I show anyone my letter. But since, some of my friends heard the replay this morning and wanted to see the original letter, I have decided to put it here in my blog. 灵芝： 很爱一个人，我有过。但今天写信来是说一个我曾经很恨的一个人。犹豫了好久的时间，才终于静下心来写这封信。内容应该会很长，因为我现在的心情还是很复杂，想到什么就写什么，只是想把一切都说出来，希望自己会好过一些。 常在《音乐日记》里听到很多人爱得很辛苦的故事，但恨一个人同样很辛苦。灵芝，收音机前的听众，你们试过吗？ 我的父亲就曾经问过我：“你恨得不辛苦吗？” 我理直气壮地说：“我恨得很开心，很过瘾！” 原来事实上，我在不知不觉中欺骗了我自己。 那天晚上，我站在厨房外看着吊在那里的他，舌头已伸出来，手指也发紫了。当妈妈哭着把他脖子上的绳索剪开时，我心里想：“我终于解脱了，你不要活过来！”对！我良心一定是被狗吃掉了，自己父亲上吊了，而我竟然希望他不会活过来，一般人一定会这样认为。 但是你们没有这种父亲，你们不会了解！你有试过回到家发现自己的抽屉被翻箱倒柜，信件被拆开的滋味吗？当你去讨个公道时，他只说一句：“我是你父亲，你有什么我不可以看？”你又有试过被人用刀片丢向你过吗？要不是他丢不准，现在也不会有人写这封信了。被椅子甩在头上，被刮耳光到鼻子留血，你又尝试过吗？这些事不足以让我恨他。当时，我只不过不喜欢他，讨厌他。 一直到24/11/2000，外婆过世的那一天。前一天，他的养母也就是我的婆婆先逝世了。一个最宠我的外婆，对我疼爱有加，我又是她最疼的外孙与一个我从小都不曾到槟城探望过的婆婆，你认为我想在哪个丧礼？妈妈，我跟两个妹妹被迫留在婆婆的丧礼。就因为他是长子，我是嫡孙。哪试问亲生母亲还是养母大？他和他的家人不让我们去外婆的丧礼，我当然板着个黑脸。看不过眼的他在我胸前狠狠地打了两拳。二叔也因...

I used to hate the word sorry. Be it ppl say to me or want me to say it to anor person. Even a person as bull as my dad had said sorry to me. Tt only goes to show hw sturbborn I am. Bt 2day, I learnt a v.impt lesson. So I wana share wif all my frenz reading my blog. 先道歉的人并非错或输了什么，而是先学会了一堂课，多长了一智！

Tuesday, 26/04/05 - 今天的语录：“偶尔，让自己放松点，轻松过每一天。别对每件事都看得太认真！简单看这复杂的世界，或许会开心点！”

Motivational words for 2nite, 1st eng 1. Monday, 25/04/05 - Shit do happens, but just stay calm & think of ways to get out of it. And remember everything happened for a reason!

As I'd said, I decide to come out wif a 语录 a day for myself. And I tink it would be a gd idea to share wif my frenz here. Let's encourage ourselves! Be positive abt life! Friday, 22/04/05 - 生命给了什么，就享受什么，要学会爱自己！ Saturday, 23/04/05 - 人生充满了选择，不管是什么选择，最重要是自己开心！ Sunday, 24/04/05 - 再忙，周末也要抽出时间来休息，机器也需要休息。为了走更远的路，停下脚步，歇会儿吧！

As I had promised to put the pics I draw, tis is the 1st! I drew 1, cute?

Part 56 - Navi knows Ice's temper too well. When's she's angry, no one can talk sense to her. He decided to leave her alone to cool down. "If that's what you want, then I shall excused myself now. Anytime you feel like talking, I'm just next door." With that, Navi left Ice's room. "Is Ice okay?" Chelsea asked with a worried look on her face. "Well, I don't think so. But she refused to tell me what's wrong with her. We spent so much time and effort to prepare this welcome back dinner and she spoilt everyone else's mood. What did I do wrong again this time?" "Have you ever wondered maybe it's not you but me?" Chelsea said with a sense of seriousness in her voice. "Huh?" Navi was taken aback and couldn't find an ans to that. Part 57 - "A woman's instinct tells me that she's not happy I'm here for her welcome party. From the way she sees me, I can feel that she's jealous about...

Part 51 - "Welcome back!" Ice was greeted by pop crackers when she entered the farm house. She was all ready to wake Navi up and make a fuss over him not contacting her and picking her up. Who was to know Navi had prepared a welcome lunch for her together with Chelsea. She was caught by surprise. Happy that Navi had prepared a seafood feast, all her favourite dishes. But she was not quite pleased that he did it all with the help of Chelsea. "Why do they seem so close and why would she be here? Extra outsider! Hmph!" Ice was hot with her thoughts. "Hey! Why are you standing there in daze? Happy with my arrangement? Disappointed for not seeing me at the airport? Of course, I won't forget you, my dear friend!" Navi smiled. Part 52 - Navi's big smile never fails to brighten up Ice's day. All her unhappiness melted with his sunshine like smile. Before Ice could question Navi about his one and only email, Navi started telling Ice about his life on Co...

Part 46 - As days went by, work load got heavier for both Ice and Navi. They spend lesser time together in doing the things both enjoyed like suntanning on Rene's beach, play with Ham and care for the farm animals. Instead Rene spent her free time manning the farm for them. Well, at least she has something to keep her occupy rather than keep thinking of her lost husband. Part 47 - Navi received a huge project and he was partnered with another capable executive, Chelsea. She came into Ace Holdings 1 year after Navi and was his mentee all these years. They were Mr Gnap's bestmen which is why he decided to put the 2 of them in charge of this million contract. Chelsea had always admire Navi's capability at work and his friendiness towards every collegues. This would be a very good chance for her to learn from Navi and also get to know him better. Part 48 - Almost every night, Chelsea and Navi would work till past midnight as both of them are perfectionist and treats their work ...

Part 41 - 2 weeks to Rene was like 2 long years. But over in South Africa, 2 weeks were just like 2 days to the 2 youngsters, Ice & Navi. They travelled in jeep to get close up to the lions and their cubs. Saw their whole hunting process of zebras. Seems cruel, but lions need to live too. The weather was hot. Ice hate it, because she will melt. Navi loves it. He grew up on the beach & tan in the sun everyday for 10 whole years. Part 42 - 2 weeks in South Africa well spent on living with the natives and getting to know their culture, living habits and learnt abit of their language. Navi went hunting, fishing and elephant riding with the men and Ice learnt to cook up afew dishes and learnt tribal dance from the women. It was her 1st time hands on cooking. Her parents had always told her that her delicate hands are only meant to play piano and not do household chores. And she never knew tribal dance can be so fun too. They enjoyed themselves in South Africa but time flies fast. It...

Part 36 - Navi had always been a friendly guy and knows almost everyone in school. Almost everyone knows him too. He soon get to know Ice after she moved in to the small farmhouse next to their new house. As he loves animals, he would help Ice in taking care of the 1 horse, 2 dogs, 3 goats, 4 chickens and 5 ducks. Oh, and there's a pond built specially for the ducks to waddle in with fish in it. Part 37 - Ice and Navi become very close friends in no time. They played the piano together and play with the farm animals everyday after school. And coincidently, their schools are just 2 streets away. They would meet to go school and come home everyday. Life was very peaceful on the beach. The beach also become more lively with the sounds of the farm animals and laughter of the 2 teenagers. Part 38 - It's their last year of college and the final papers are near. Ice and Navi both being diligent students studied together till wee hours everyday. At times, they even forgot to go back Na...

Part 31 - One sunny afternoon, a family of three came to the seaside where Navi and his mum, Rene live on. The daugther, Ice feels that the beach is the loviest she'd ever been to. She wants her parents to buy the whole beach and build a house and a little farm for her. She wants to be able to play her piano and rear farm animals on this beach. Part 32 - As Mr & Mrs Gnap doted on Ice very much, they went to discuss with Rene wanting her to sell the beach. Of course, Rene rejected as the beach is the only thing her husband left for her. The most important thing is she strongly believed one day he would come back for her. Navi came home and saw Mr and Mrs Gnap. "Mum, they are?" "Navi, you came home at the right time, help me send these 2 guests out. They are here to persuade me in selling off this beach your dad left for me." "Sir and Madam, it's a waste of your efforts. My mum would never agree to let out this beach to you. It's the only thing my...

Part 26 - "You are awake, my dear boy. Look how skinny you are, it must have been afew days you went without food. Come, I'd prepared dinner for you." Navi jumped out of bed in a spilt second and was at the dinning table gobbling down his food. He was too hungry to think of anything. Part 27 - "Slow down, boy. Or u might just get chocked. Oh, what's your name?" In between mouthfuls of food, Navi said, "Navi." "Navi, that's a nice name. Where are your parents, why are you alone?" Navi stopped eating and look up at the person sitting opposite him for the first time. She was a kind looking middle age lady with the kind of motherly look Navi imagined his own mum to be. Part 28 - Navi couldn't control his emotions. He had always wondered why did his parents left him at the orphanage. He burst into tears, "My parents left me when I was young. I don't even know how they looked like. I ran out of Be Loved Home just afew weeks ago...

Part 21 - One stormy night, Navi decided to leave Be Love home. He couldn't bring himself to accept the fact that Atina had forgotten all about him. He packed 2 sets of clothes, some leftover dinner & left. He followed the road which Mr Gnap's car headed the day Atina left. Part 22 - During the day, Navi would travelled in the woods and only walk on the roads in the night. He was afraid of being found out that he ran away from Be Love home. He was determined to find Atina. He settled his meals by picking fruits from the woods and clean himself up in the river. Part 23 - 3 days passed and Navi came to a seaside. He had never been to the beach. He fell in love with the sea at the first step he placed on the seashore. The wind was blowing against his face and he simply love that feeling. For once, nothing around him matters anymore. He jumped into the sea, into the wide arms of mother nature. Part 24 - After having his fill of fun in the sea for more than an hour, Navi got out...

Part 16 - At the age of 7, Atina was adopted by a wealthy family whose members were talented in music. The foster parents, Mr and Mrs Gnap were very impressed by Atina's performance on Be Love home's charity show night. Mr and Mrs Gnap were married for 5 years and due to some health reasons, were unable to have any kids. Part 17 - The night before Atina's foster parents come to fetch her, she & Navi couldn't sleep. They sat side by side in the ECO garden and gaze into the sky. It would be their last night watching stars together. No one said anything for a long time. Part 18 - Navi broke the silent, "Would you remember me?" "Of coz I will, silly." "Finally the happiness we both waited for so long is arriving for you. I'm glad for you. Would you be back?" "I would persuade my foster parents to come back and adopt you." "It's a promise then." "Yup, I promised!" They both hugged for the last time under...

Part 11 - "Hey, it's cute!", exclaimed Atina."Oh, so she can speak..", thought Navi.He was stunned for words. "Does it has a name?""Erm..yah..Mao Mao..""That's cool!""You..'re..A..ti..na?" Part 12 - "Yes, I'm Atina. And you are?""You can speak? Every other kids in this home thought you can't. Anyway, I'm Navi.""She's not unfriendly like the others said to be." thought Navi."That's because they never tried to talk to me. So, I supposed you're in charge of the ECO-garden?""Yup, that's right." Part 13 - From that day onwards, Navi would drop by the music room & listen to Atina playing nice music pieces on the piano. He loves 'Whole Life Beautiful' and 'The Way You Care' the best. Atina would also join Navi in the ECO-garden to clean up the animals' cage and play with them together with Navi. From there, their friendsh...

Part 6 - Navi always have the curiousity to enter the music room to see the pianist. But he heard from the other kids that the room was manned by an unfriendly girl, Atina. She was described as someone who don't speak a single word to anyone. Other kids at Be Loved Home were wondering if she was dumb. Part 7 - One fine day, Navi was cleaning up the ECO - garden as usual. Today, he hears a new piece of music being played in the music room. Though it was not played with perfection, Navi could hear that it's his fave song, 'The Way You Care'. It's the theme song of the show, '7th Days Belle'. Navi simply loves this touching show with the nice them song. Part 8 - Each day, Navi looks forward to listening the mysterious girl in the music room practise the song, 'The Way You Care'. Though Navi has no music talent, he could hear the improvement in the piece each day. Many a times, he wanted to go into the music room, but held back. Partly because he wants t...

Part 1- Atina & Navi grew up in Be Loved orphanage. They were both 5 yrs old when they 1st got there. Atina was sent there 6 months & 6 days earlier than Navi. Part 2 - Atina was gifted in music while Navi loves animals. Therefore, the orphanage Head Master puts Atina in charge of the orphanage music room and lets Navi take care of the animals in the ECO garden. Part 3 - As Atina dislikes making friends, she didn't get along well wif any other kids in the orphanage. Her free time would be spent maintaining the music room & playing her fave songs on the piano. One of them is Immas' 'Whole Life Beautiful'. Part 4 - Navi is a very shy boy who don't dare to socialise, which is why he doesn't has any friends in the orphanage. But he is happy with the way he leads his life there. He would spend his free time cleaning up the ECO-garden & taking care of the animals there. Each and every animal was given a name by him. They are his best friends. Part 5 - ...