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《 談勢力的愛情 》 作词：林夕 作曲：黄韵玲 改編自林曉培 – 心動 改編詞 : 　鷹艾文 你的一點一滴   我還放在心裡 安靜地躺在抽屜裡   是你送我的專輯 已發黃的日記   記載我們多少回憶 我偶爾在夜裡思念你   苦澀帶著甜蜜 談實力的愛情   太擁擠 儘管再努力   也住不進你心裡 哦 ~ 應該說對不起還是我愛你 見證你的婚禮默默祝福你   退回角落裡 含著淚離去   不等待著奇蹟 鐵了心忘記你   你的近況不再提起 因為我其實就像只螞蟻   存在 也没意义 已經嘗試好久,一直無法把這首歌寫完。 今晚，聽到自己的故事在 YES93.3 播出後，終於把詞給填完了。

因为广播是 PG， 所以部分内容在 YES 93.3FM 被念出时是被删掉的，这我能理解。 在此，一字不漏地与大家分享我的心情小抽屉。。。 嘿陈宁， 你好，今晚扭开收音机，听到的前面两首歌就是你播了，周兴哲 - 想回到那一天，还有 MP - 我还是爱着你。 听了之后，感触良多。 两个多星期前，突然想到了自己的初恋情人，莫名有种想法闪过，“不知道，她结婚了没？” 结果，就手痒，点击她的脸书。。。 那晚，6月1日。 刚过去的周末，5月28日，代号 - 36 结婚去了。 分手后的我们，依然保持联络。 多年后的我们，也曾经两个人一同出国。 初恋在 16 岁，一个我还不是很懂女生的年龄。 做了很多蠢事，让她不开心。 一气之下，在冷战后的一个星期，我们分了手。 幸运的是，年轻的我们，吵了不久后，和好了。 虽然没有复合，但我们继续维持良好的友情。 22岁那年，我要求复合。 她，凭着自己的某种理由，婉拒了我。 当时的她说，“现在的我，对你也有好感，但是 xxx ， 我们还是继续做朋友会好一点。。。" 也有用脸书与简讯继续联络，偶尔还是会约出去吃饭，看电影。 但是，我有个原则，她也晓得。 就是只要她一交了男朋友，我就会自动停止约她出去。 24岁那年，她结交了新男友。 从那时到现在 33岁的我们， 9年都不再约见面。 在街上，也只撞见她与她当时的男朋友一次。 但是，她在前方，并没有发觉我的存在。 曾经，我们在脸书上提到，如果任何一方先有喜讯，一定会通知彼此。 当我点击了她的脸书，看到了她的喜讯，在自己的脸书上分享了  田馥甄 - 这个人已经与我无关。 妹妹看到了后问我，”你难过吗？“ 我的回答是，“说真的，我是失望比难过多一点。不是说好还是朋友？ 不是说过会告诉对方吗？ 原来只是客套话。或许， 我们之间有过的回忆是她不想再记起的，我明白。但我不要求出席，只是没想过不被通知。” 为了她，我第一次把头发给剃光。 与她分手后的我，把右拳头的首两只关节骨以墙壁与灯柱打碎过，到了紧急部门包扎。 到现在，举重的东西时，还会有后遗症的痛。 也曾像看电视剧一样，对自己的肉体造成伤害。 还曾经像一个...

Back dated : 15/08/2013 鹰艾文 - 《我一直都在》 Sing to the tune of 林俊杰 - 《无尽的思念 》 见面你问我的那句话 为何还是一个人 心里隐藏那句真心话 这一次再一次被吞没 生命的阳光 若隐又若现 从没想过它是为谁发着光 心痛望着你 开过几扇门 最后还是捡起失落掉眼泪 死心眼的你 不见眼前那道门 已经为你敞开多年等待着 见面你问我的那句话 为何还是一个人 心里隐藏那句真心话 这一次再一次被吞没 错过的时间不能再从来 多少的等待梦想才会实现 给我个机会 让我们尝试 就算失败了我们曾拥有过 我们是朋友 那句老旧的话语 是否能演变成不只是朋友 给我个机会 让我们尝试 就算失败了我们曾拥有过 我们是朋友 那句老旧的话语 是否能演变成不只是朋友 最终的结局是朋友或情人 我一直都在角落守护着你

While preparing to submit my portfolio to NAC, I realized this song was not shared on my blog. Back date, this song was composed on 04/08/2013. 鹰艾文 – 《爱虽一个字》 爱虽一个字      牵扯着许多 兴奋致无法入睡 也会痛苦地失眠 像是颗灵丹神医 拥有了百病全无 失去了生不如死 一时为爱系上的结 用尽一生的情也解不开 你快乐时      我会为你开心 再把它交还给你      让你幸福加倍 你难过时      我的痛到极点 泪水倒流进心里      把爱全都淹没 爱你已不是秘密     疼你是戒不掉的习惯 无需完美的对待     只求真诚 地 相爱一回 你却不愿我等待     爱你从此不再说出口 因为只是个朋友 唯有尽力做好朋友的本分 你说的如此完美 叫我怎么能拒绝给予成全 当你决定离开的那一夜      我的爱情拼图被一刀划破 了解浪漫的爱情      只存活在童话故事里 随着故事的剧终      为你留下最后一滴泪 遗憾太多却来不及后悔      从此失去了梦想中的幸福

We didn't have a lot of family photos together, not to mention a photo of only Dad and me. So, this photo just have to be re-used every time I blog about Dad. 我們沒有太多的全家福，更不用說我與父親的合照。 所以每當要提到父親時，就只能用這張照片。 15/05/16 :- SAHM VS SAHP - Why choose one? 全職母親與全職雙親　－　為何就只能二選一？ (SAHM -Stay At Home Mum, SAHP - Stay At Home Parents) I've been wanting to blog about this for the longest time. Today seems to be a perfect day. Because, today is Papa's birthday. My Mum has been a SAHM for our earlier childhood lives. It was nice having her around at home. However, as we grow up, expenses increases but not Dad's salary. Mum has no choice but to re-enter the workforce. My relationship with Dad was not a pleasant one. He was a strict father and very obsessive. Not just towards Mum but us too. Due to the lack of security, he likes to ransack our stuff as well. Though I  may not be sure if he had been a SAHD or a SAHP, would things be better. However, from his ...

09/05/16 :- Mums who have lost their Mums need more love! 失去了母親的母親需要多一點愛！ While we have the luxury to go home and whine to our Mums when we needed an outlet or just a comfy hug, who can they turn to when they needed someone? They have to be strong for us and appear strong on their own because they have lost one of their pillar in life. On this special day (of course on other days as well), I hope you would shower more love to them. At the same time, I know there are friends around me who have lost their Mums. My dear friends, look up to the sky. Why? A senior once told me, whenever you missed someone who have gone to heaven, look up to the sky, they are there watching over us. All you need is to feel them with your heart. 我們需要發洩或一個溫暖的抱抱，都可以跑回家找媽媽。 但是，母親呢? 她們需要一個人時，可以找誰？ 為了我們，她們必須堅強。 也因為她們失去了人生其中一個柱子，外表需要故作堅強。 在這特別的一天 (當然別天也一樣)，希望大家給予母親多一點愛。 同時，我知道周遭也有些朋友已失去了他們的母親。 朋友，抬頭看著天。 為甚麼？ 因為，曾經有個學長告訴過我，每當你想念已移居天堂的人時，抬頭望著天，他們會在天上守護著我們。 你只需要用心地去感應。

02/05/16 :- Sometimes, you just need to hold onto that belief! 有時，你需要的就是持續相信！ The law of attraction proves itself on the 8th day! I've given it a 3 days challenge. 3 days, 72 hours, 4,320 mins has passed. I was super disappointed when the message didn't came in before 2215 hours on Wednesday, 27th Apr 16. However, I didn't give up holding onto that thought that the message would come in. Imagine the joy which I could not contain when I received the message. =) Give universe time, place your order, imagine yourself receiving it and it would definitely come true. 吸引力法則在第八天實現了！ 之前，我給了它3天的時限。 3天，72小時，4,320分鐘就這樣過去了。 在星期三，4月27日的 2215 小時，簡訊沒有來到，可想而知我有多失望。 但是，我沒有放棄繼續以念力想著簡訊終究會進來。 收到簡訊的那剎那，你是否想像得到我的喜悅？=) 給予宇宙時間，下訂單，想像自己接收到，它一定會實現！

23/04/16 :- Challenging the Law of Attraction in 72hours! 挑戰吸引力法則 72小時！ You said, "if u like to draw u should draw more". Most of the words you said, I've secretly kept them in my brain's storage. However, you do not like to share much and I still have a lot of storage space available. In a few days, many things packed my mind. It is starting to seem like a mountain full of dangers and almost impossible to even attempt climbing. Now, I am in such a dilemma and not know what to do. So, I decide to take up this 72 hours challenge. I was not confident and wanted to give myself 5days. Yet, I thought to myself, if things were to happen, it may even happen in a day. And if it's not going to, even 10 days or a month, nothing will come out of it. Therefore, on 23 Apr 16 at 2215, I have decided not to send you a single message for the next 72hours. At the same time, I would keep thinking of you and imagine that message coming from ...

17/04/16 :- What do you want to leave for your kids? 你想留給孩子的是甚麼？ What do you want to leave for your kids? Have you even considered that? I do not have children yet but I have 2 god children. Just like what I mentioned on the ang pow to George; when he grows up, Godpa would want to be able to teach him how to grow up rich and earn residual income. Qiqi once told me this, "If I can, I hope to be able to provide my children with education till University. Because our family was not well to do, I need to work and do part time study at the same time to repay my education loan and I know how tough it is." But, is that the best way? I would not want my children to go through 10+ years of education just to received an University certificate and earned a better chance to work for others for 40-45 years. Throughout these years, they build dreams for the rich and do not even have a guarantee future of being able to retire comfortably at age 65. Do not get me wrong, I ...

16/04/16 :- Who are you accountable for? 你對誰有責任？ I've invited my whole family to be present during my 1st dream board presentation, . For a simple reason; my dreams are all about them. Since young, other than being a devoted guy in love, I'm well known for my short span interest in other stuff and give up easily. That was why I've choose to invite my family to the presentation, it's like letting my team be the witness for my promise to them. Many would have heard the analogy of doing the same thing for 21 days and it would become a habit. The chances of giving up after that get reduced significantly. Since 01st Aug 2015, after I've make an important decision to start planning for myself and change the life I am leading with the actions I've started to take, my family has gotten used to the changed me. Going out till at least 10pm to fight hard for my dreams after I've knocked off from my day job has become a norm to my family members. Howev...

      曲：   陳志遠 原詞： 陳樂融                                                                              改編詞： 鷹艾文 《 真實的自我》 牆上老舊的時鐘 獨自滴答著 身處在一個角落 被世界遺忘 思緒寫在日記裡 害怕被看見 自己的小小空間 不讓人靠近 虛擬世界   真實的自我 我的心藏了魔 只好選擇沉默 不善言語的我 讓人無法捉摸 甚至顯得神秘灑脫 封閉的心   無助的靈魂 發呆的時候顯得很冷漠 其實也想   平平淡淡愛一回 有誰能來開啟我的心 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QicG2yk35ms Helped a friend  to complete her homework. Not exactly perfect but hopefully can give her some ideas on how to complete.

It's 30th Mar once more. Here I am dedicating yet another post to My Love. =) 33 years ago, this talented girl was born. I'm glad Papa and Mama Tien got together to bring her to this world. 11 Sep 2001, My Love started her singing journey with her "wives". Ever since then, they brought warm to our hearts. Their songs accompany us through our teenage years and we are all going to support them till they are 80 years old as long as they are willing to continue singing. On her birthday, I wished that she would continue to pursue what she truly love and disregard what others said. May she always get to choose the kind of songs she loves to sing. Stay true and keep the green spirit on! We shall both continue to protect the environment as best as we could! To the girl whose heart is made of gold, Happy Lovely Birthday! =D

28/03/16 :-  父愛比較含蓄。 Fatherly love is more reserved. He was not my hero. I have never said I want to grow up to be like him. I did not think he was someone I am proud of. It was not even a love-hate relationship we had. However, when he passed on, things slowly took a change. The things he did and words he said, they slowly came back to me... I start to ponder and at times, it brought me heartaches. Recently, I was talking to a new friend on how he has nagged at Mum and me when Mum bought me my first hamster. Then, not long after, he bought me a male one for the female hamster I had. My friend's first reaction was, "That is his love for you. He loves you." It has never dawn on me. Such simple words, it strikes me. Just like many always say, "Just because someone do not love you the want they do, it does not mean they don't." 他不是我的英雄。 我不曾說過長大後要跟他一樣。 我也沒以他為傲。 甚至，我們連愛恨關係都沒有。 但是，當他過世之後，事情開始改變了。 他做過的事，說過的話，...

Whenever I see this group of friends, I always thought of what Mum said, "In everyone's life, (those who been through secondary school) you would be the closest with your secondary school friends." I'm a blessed guy who is never short of friends. Not just friends, or 1 BFF but a handful of BFFs. Believe it or not, it's in my bazi characters. Thanks to Mummy for giving birth to me there and then. In a flash of an eye, we are celebrating our 20th years of friendship. Growing up was tough, definitely not a smooth path. With their presence, it was so much more bearable. We have all been through lots of ups and downs and also seen each other's worst" state. Though you may not remember, but I would like to take this opportunity to thank you, ladies for :- - Watching me cry when I only got B3 for the first round of "O" levels Chinese. - Being there when Dad left my family. - Listening to my love history and giving wor...

19/03/16 :- Words - Make or break! 言語 - 廉價的代價！ Words which you said, can make or break somebody. Sometimes, it is just for that moment. Most of the times, it lasts for a lifetime. From "Men are Lunatics, Women are Nuts", it was said that the average woman speaks around 5000 words per day whereas the average male speaks around 2000. How many of those words do we actually remember? How much do we prepare ourselves before speaking them? More often than not, we do not remember what we said nor do we have any preparation before speaking them. Yet, we neglect the effect it would have on the listener. Throughout my life, I've heard many things which others have unintentionally spoken. However, they have a deep impact on me till now. As I have been motivated by the positive feedback and was disappointed at the negative comments given, as far as I can, I try my best to only speak of positive encouraging words to people around me now. Howeve...

24/02/16 :- 百行孝為先！ Piety is the foundation of all virtues! 上風水八字課時，老師常告訴我們孝字如今的寫法已經不同了。 從前，都是孩子背著年老的父母親。 如今，孩子在上，父母親在下。 更遭的情況，父母還需要幫孩子背負照顧他們的孩子的責任。 漸漸地，我開始了解這一點。 三兄妹當中，老實說我絕對不是那個最孝順，更不是那個最乖巧最聰明的。 我很愛趴趴走，出國時也不太會想家，每天都只是執行任務似的報平安一次，之後就只顧自己玩個痛快！ 但我都會盡全力給母親我能給的，有空時陪她吃吃飯，逛逛街，打打牌。 爺爺，奶奶，外公，外婆與父親都已不在人世，唯一能讓我們盡孝道的唯有母親。 所以，對她的孝道應該至少五倍！ 家有一老，如有一寶。 家裡還有寶的朋友們，不要浪費時間，忽略那些永遠都會不顧一切愛我們的長輩。 我們自己或許還有好幾十年的時間，但是能夠與祖父母與父母相聚的時間一天比一天少。 不要讓自己的下半生有任何遺憾，時光流逝用再多的錢也買不回的。 The Chinese character for filial piety (孝) is made up of a kid (子) at the bottom and an elderly (老) on top. This means to say, as a child, we should shoulder our parents and take care of them. While attending my Fengshui classes, our teacher has mentioned to us that the Chinese character in modern world has changed. The kid is on top of the elderly and in certain worse cases, there is another kid (grandchild) on top. The poor folk has to take care of the grandchild for the child. As time ...

31/01/16 :- Always be an empty glass，never stop learning. 保持空杯子心態，歸零學習。 By pouring water into a glass full of water, it will simply overflow. Just like if your mind is full of your own perception and thinking it's the best, you are likely not to be receptive of other people's opinions. More often than not, we made mistakes thinking that we know it all. In life, there are many things to learn from everyone around us. If we can always remind ourselves to be like an empty glass, we are able to learn much more things. We should not have a closed mind, it does no harm to others but ourselves. It limits our improvement and growth as a person. Are you ready to empty your glass? 如果你持續將水倒入一個裝滿水的杯子，水就會溢出來。 犹如你的腦袋充滿了自己的想法並自以為那是最好的，往往你就無法接納別人的意見。 很多時候，我們都會患上大頭症，彷彿自己甚麼都知道。 但是，現實生活中，我們有很多事是可以向身邊的人學習的。 如果，我們可以時時提醒自己保持空杯子的心態，我們可以學習到更多。 封閉自己，對於別人毫無影響，卻讓自己損失很多。 這舉動阻止了自我的進步與個人成長。 你是否準備好倒空自己的杯子？

18/01/16 :- Never give up, SUCCESS is just about to thrust out of the ground! 永不放棄，成功就快破土而出! How many times have we tried doing something, put in lots of effort in making it work, only to give up in the end? Have you ever grown a plant? Do you plant a seed today and the next day, you see a seedling in your pot? Most of the time, it would not happen that way. It is the same as setting our goals in life. We work hard toward achieving what we want by putting in time and effort. As time goes by, it seems that efforts are not paying off and we throw in the towel, calling it quits altogether. What we may not know is that the seed (goal) we have planted in the soil is about to break free if we were to water it one more day. It is no uncommon for humans to look at things from the surface. On the surface, it may looks as if all our past efforts are not paying off. In fact, underneath the soil, the seed has been absorbing the nutrients we have been provid...

Today, during our first lyrics writing class, Xiao Han told us of the 3 types of people who existed in this world. 今天，第一堂的填词班，小寒老师与我们分享了，这个世界存在着3种人。 The first type is the kind of people who listened a lot and have many inner thoughts. However, they do not know how to express themselves. 第一种人，听了很多也接收了很多信息，内心有很多感触。 但是遗憾的是，他们不知道如何表达。 We have the second type whose ears are shut to what others have to say. They are oblivious to the outside world. Just like empty vessels, they make a lot of noise. Their world is only about themselves and they speak what they like. 第二种人对周遭的事一概不理，别人说的话也听不进去。 这种人觉得世界只绕着他们打转，爱说什么就说什么。 The last rare type of people are sensitive to their surrounding. As they absorbed as much as they can, the information get analyzed in their brains and they are able to express after it has been processed. We should all work towards being the last type of person. 最后一种的稀有品种对周遭很敏感。 他们能够吸收了信息，经过大脑分析后，把处理过的思绪完善地表达。 我们都应该向成为这一类人的目标迈...